Losing Control

Can I just be real with you for a minute? I don’t know about you but I’m a little bit of a control freak sometimes. I volunteer to drive when I ride with other people because I like being in control.

It’s terrifying when you feel the lack of control in a situation let alone an area of your life.

Well, I currently feel a lack of control in every area of my life. I have no idea what my life will look like in 6 months. As a college student, I had a decent idea of what my next 6 months would look like. But as I approach graduation in December, the reality of not knowing what my life will look like is absolutely terrifying.

I don’t know what my job will be, where I’ll live, who I’ll marry, if I’ll have kids someday. The future is this big huge great unknown and I feel this lack of control. There isn’t instant gratification for any of these answers right now.

We live in this time where everything is at our fingertips. We expect instant gratification. Well, searching for a job isn’t easy. There isn’t instant gratification.

So I’m learning to lose control. To let God guide me. To trust that He has a plan and that is greater than anything my human mind could imagine.

I’m learning to be patient in the waiting. To not expect instant gratification but to wait for the perfect timing God has planned.

And I’m opening my heart to new adventures. To preparing myself for whatever the Lord has in store for me. To go where He calls me. To not let anyone or anything hold be back from following His will for my life.

So as I lose control, I cling to Him. This lack of control is hard. It’s a battle daily. But it’s exhilarating. It creates this new sense of adventure in my heart.

And you know, I couldn’t be more excited. Excited for the adventure that awaits.

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One thought on “Losing Control

  1. Joel says:

    I used to be a control freak in several areas myself. God has definitely taken me to task with that over the past year! But he’s has always stayed faithful and true and I’ve always been taken care of. He’s a good God! I’m sure your adventure with God will rock your world! God bless!


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